feeling very sad.. :'(

crying crazily

hoping for someone to change his attitude. But then I realized that, it is under my control. 

maybe what I always do is giving advice, 

remind he

that he should change her attitude for our family

but

again and again

I feel nothing

I couldn't see any changes

I feel very sad

everything was very bad

I miss my family

• don't get me wrong.  'He' in this entry is my mahram. 
• I feel very very super duper sad.
• but then I know, what else can I do is keep praying for something good to appear.
• don't be sad anymore , Aishah sayang.. Innallaha Ma'ana :)
• and, suddenly, I remember what one of my good sifu always told us ages before :
  

  ' We can't contol what can't control. But we can control what we can control. So, focus on what we can control to' : ustaz al sufi (2008)

  nahhh~ don't forget, we are only the creature, not the Creator. so, whenever we feel that something doesn't seem to improve or change, keep praying for Allah's help as He is the one whose everything is under His control. Wallahualam..
  
  so, Aishah. stop crying. Focusing on your another 6 paper.
  Dean's List this sem, huh? InshaAllah :)
  
  
  
  sayang ummi, ayah, akak, abang khairul, abang, and toha. :')