that familiar voice ..

Bismillah ..

Yesterday when I called my mom , she was the first one who greeted me with her "Hello" .

Suddenly my heart felt something . That voice remind me of someone.

Someone who I miss so much. Someone who I adore her cooking especially the most delicious 'kuih abuk-abuk' in the world and many more.

Someone who ever asked me to stay longer with her as at that time, when I was just 7-8 , I managed to memorize Doa Qunut well, and she was so impressed till she requested me to be with her and to give her a lesson on how I can do that.

Someone who I miss so hard to kiss her hand on every single "raya fiest" morning .

Alfatihah for my beloved late Grandma, Gayah binti Sulaiman.

I miss you so much :')

*Actually this is not the first time I notice that my mum's voice is similar as my grandma. Just this is the first time I just like to write it down here :)

ok
what to say
2 weeks is not enough
believe me
in such a shock you gonna do something important in your life
that takes long time to be prepared
but you were given only 2 weeks

ya. absolutely, 2 weeks is not enough
I need more
but what else can I say
live must go on

 ... and 18th of April has to come

the day I will be presented my Final Year Project in front of the lectures !

be positive!

senyum lah , sayang !

Ya. Tajuk tu untuk diri aku sendiri sebenarnya . Sebelum aku tulis ni, aku dah nangis habis-habis masa lepas solat tadi . Aku nangis. Ya. Aku nangis. Semuanya datang tanpa aku duga.

announcement pasal final year project presentation hari jumaat 18hb April sedangkan dia baru je bagitau 4hb April - mana rasionalnya ?

sistem buat lesen kereta motor akan berubah kalau tak lulus atau tak ambil test sebelum 2 Mei-baru beritahu Khamis hari tu . kenapa tak beritahu awal-awal ? akan ada 2 sesi test JPJ sebelum sistem berubah iaitu pada 18hb April and 2 Mei. so, kau kene pilih. 

Project mini Advanced Soil Microbiology proposal presentation in front of Prof Zul and other Master student, hari khamis 17hb , one day before final year project proposal presentation. 

boleh bayang tak ? bayang lah sendiri .

sebenarnya , aku puas tersenyum sorang-sorang kadang-kadang . bila aku fikir, dekat mana kekuatan aku yang tersembunyi tu sampai Allah letak aku kat ujian macam ni. 

aku puas tersenyum bila aku tertanya-tanya macam mana lah nanti kalau aku berjaya harungi semua ujian ni. mampu ke ? aku tau sebenarnya aku mampu sebab tu Allah letak aku kat sini . Aku puas tersenyum sebab aku macam tak percaya. 

Aku tak balik midsem break ni sebab aku nak settle kan proposal fyp . proposal mini project pun aku tak terjumpa lagi prof zul. dia kata kena dapatkan approval dia dulu baru boleh run presentation. masalahnya hari jumaat hari tu aku pegi, tapi kak ana kata dia ada workshop sampai petang. ni aku kene tunggu dia balik jumaat depan semata nak dapatkan approval dia .

dr tan pulak hari rabu baru available kat fac. aku tak beritau dia lagi aku kene present hari jumaat 18hb April. mau dia pun speechless jugak nanti. 

18 hb tu jugak, aku dalam dilema, nak amek test jpj ke tak ? kalau tangguh ke 2 Mei, aku takut aku kena repeat, so, terus masuk sistem baru. kalau 18 hb April, kene repeat pun tak pe, ada peluang lagi 2 Mei tu kan. so ? istikharah ke camne niiii ..

papepun aku tauuuuu ...

sebab tu lah aku banyak tersenyum dari menangis . aku tau, waktu macam ni, aku kena banyak bersangka baik pada Allah . sebab Allah Maha Mengetahui, sedangkan aku tidak tahu . 

:)