A Lesson

Today i got  crop physiology test at 10 in the morning. At 8 am, actually I have to attend weed science class. However, I studied until late in the midnight and got headache . I missed the class. I felt very sad at that time. Some of the classmate in weed science's kept asking me. What happened,aishah? I don't know what was the appropriate word to answer them best. Maybe some people would ever think that I intentionally skip the class just because I need to finish studying for physiology. Yeah, I am sure that it will come across their mind as a human being. That was not their fault to think of that way.
 Okay, actually that is the introduction on what exactly I want to share in this my so-called diary. At 9.40++ am, I got a message from one of my best course mate. Actually she is a very kind person to everyone.

This is what her message sounds like :

*** salam aishah. kenapa tak datang kelas? aishah tak sihat ke..?

and I replied:

*** salam , athirah(not the real name).. mintak maaflah. saya sakit kepala. duk study fisio smpai lewat.saya rasa bersalah sangat.

and then, she replied with not a simple message but such a quote one and really motivating. And it sound like this :

***Rahsia kejayaan bukan dengan banyaknya membaca, kerapnya berbincang dan kuatnya ingatan..
Tetapi kejayaan yang sebenar datang bila kamu meletakkan 100% keyakinan dan imanmu pada Allah Yang Satu kerana Dialah pemilik ilmu itu...
Inshaallah semoga dipermudahkan.

(The secret of a success not with how much you read, how often you have discussion, and how strong your memory is. But the real success comes when you put 100% trust and faith in Allah for He is the Owner of that knowledge.
Inshaallah,may everything going smoothly.)

.......That message really make me realized that I should not do that. For grabbing a very good result in physiology test, I tend to ignore a very important class. Yes, it is only a class. Test seems to be very important but the obvious differences between me and my friends(who attend the class) is I did'nt get the knowledge I supposed to get directly from the lecturer. And I am very sure my action was not be blessed by Allah. Just for the sake of a very good result, I studied until late in midnight and miss the class because of the headache. O Allah , please forgive me for what have I done :(

And today, I got a very meaningful lesson.

• I should have not miss any class anymore as what I did today.
• Don't and never ever again make a very last minute preparation in revising for every subject.
• Let's tawakal and give our trust to Allah as He know what best for us.
• Today, I realized that I have friends that really care about me. Curious to know what actually happened to me. Worrying if something bad happened to me. O Allah, thanks for giving me this kind of beautiful gift : F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P and U.K.H.W.A.H.
• Last but not least...Aishah, let be positive on every mehnah and tribulation that Allah gave you. :)

May tomorrow comes with a good thing and beautiful rainbow. :)

Heart..? @_@

At the time i wrote this entry,tomorrow is the day of statistic's test. Ya Allah,and I don't even finished revise all of the topic that covered the test. T.T huhu..and now,is the time between maghrib and isyak.

I don't know why, I feel lost. My heart feel empty. I know why that happen. The reason is,maybe it is all about my relationship with my Creator. O Allah,forgive me. My friend started to tease me with few boys name. These boys are all my friends. I know,my friends were just joking. To see me smile. To see me feel shy and i appreciate that. Then I would say that I have no feeling towards them. However,how long can i stand to avoid any weird feeling to get into my heart? it is very undeniable for my heart itself to feel nothing with their teasing. It is not easy to take a good care of a heart. It is seriously very difficult.  InshaAllah,from now on,i will never be compromised with their word.I will avoid myself from doing anything that could give them way to that anymore. Yes,it start with me. I should be more careful next time.

**I went to Ustaz Hasrizal's website and i found THIS . Whenever Darwin got his 'Evolution Theory', Ustaz Hasrizal also got his a very touched 'Love Evolution Theory' and this kind of theory is the real and more practical one compared with Darwin's. And it touched my heart and giving me motivation to refresh my iman . **

___: according to this kind of dilemma , i did 'unfriend' a few friends in facebook to make sure i could have at least some time to re-treat my heart. It doesn't mean our ukhwah is over. It just a start of something new. A new heart of Aishah ^^ and to that 'friend', I will add you as a friend again ! :)